It's been a bad day...

Tweets for the day.

Mon, 12 May 2008 00:04:39 GMT

19:52 Heading out to Northbank for Gloria's birthday party. We look HOT. ;) #
01:25 Wow what a night. I think Glori had an awesome birthday, but after the drinks I can't tell. Will figure it out in the morning. My tattoo ... #

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Sun, 11 May 2008 00:08:11 GMT

00:52 OMFG! Speed Racer was visual crack. This movie will violate your eyes and explode your brain in the best way possible. #
13:06 Pulling off the bandages on a fresh tattoo the morning after HURTS. Mostly from the surgical tape. is.gd/ePV and is.gd/ePW #

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Sat, 10 May 2008 00:04:35 GMT

19:37 Saw @stonethorn using twhirl and decided to try it. seems nifty. #
23:14 @quintoc Dude! Check tonight's LOST ep against the Mirror Matter Moon theory that we were talking about a few weeks ago. It fits. #
00:26 @stonethorn Ohhh, goat cheese ravioli sounds awesome. We should hang out and go to dinner and drinks sometime. Hit me up! #

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My newest musical addiction.

Fri, 09 May 2008 05:05:22 GMT

The child without a name grew up to be the hand
To watch you, to shield you or kill on demand
The choice he'd made he could not comprehend
His blood a grim secret they had to command

He's torn between his honor and the true love of his life
He prayed for both but was denied

So many dreams were broken and so much was sacrificed
Was it worth the ones we loved and had to leave behind?
So many years have past, who are the noble and the wise?
Will all our sins be justified?

The curse of his powers tormented his life
Obeying the crown was a sinister price
His soul was tortured by love and by pain
He surely would flee but the oath made him stay

He's torn between his honor and the true love of his life
He prayed for both but was denied

So many dreams were broken and so much was sacrificed
Was it worth the ones we loved and had to leave behind?
So many years have past, who are the noble and the wise?
Will all our sins be justified?

Please forgive me for the sorrow, for leaving you in fear
For the dreams we had to silence, that's all they'll ever be
Still I'll be the hand that serves you
Though you'll not see that it is me

So many dreams were broken and so much was sacrificed
Was it worth the ones we loved and had to leave behind?
So many years have past, who are the noble and the wise?
Will all our sins be justified?

Tweets for the day.

Fri, 09 May 2008 00:06:34 GMT

14:43 Ok, I finaly set up a twitter account. #
15:00 Testing posting from mobile device. #

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Holy shit!

Thu, 17 Apr 2008 23:07:13 GMT

Dathklok is coming to Portland on June 2nd!!!! MUST GET TICKETS!!!!

Stolen from Arika.

Wed, 12 Mar 2008 22:40:23 GMT

My authentic japanese name is 石丸 Ishimaru (round stone) 国海 Kuniumi (country ocean).
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Super Smash Bros. Brawl

Tue, 11 Mar 2008 15:46:53 GMT

Fuck yes. 5412-9582-4305

Tue, 04 Mar 2008 17:28:07 GMT

A moment of silence. Gary Gygax, the father of tabletop roleplaying, has passed away.

http://www.freeyabb.com/phpbb/viewtopic.php?t=4373&mforum=trolllordgames

I love you VNV Nation

Tue, 04 Mar 2008 07:54:45 GMT

Procrastinating
Pretending to worry
Solving problems
By pushing them aside
Wasting time
Like we've all the time in the world

Deliberation
Instead of solution
Pan of a term
For blatant fixed
Biding time
Like we've all the time in the world

And I'm not the only one
who thinks we're trying to say
To the heavens and all who hear us
Behold all we have made
We bring destruction
We bring war without an end
And then we live in hope
That tomorrow never comes
That it never comes

We conquer paradise
Just to burn it to the ground
And we build a future
To honor paths we've left behind
We bring destruction
We bring war without an end
And then we hope
That tomorrow never comes
That it never comes

The problems get worse
Before they get better
We find excuses to divert our eyes
Let tomorrow
Deal with what we could have done

And if you think we're the future
That we build tomorrow
When was the last day without a war
We speak of quickness
That we have never been

And I'm not the only one
Who thinks we're trying to say
To the heavens and all who hear us
Behold all we have made
We bring destruction
We bring war without an end
And then we live in hope
That tomorrow never comes
That it never comes

We conquer paradise
Just to burn it to the ground
And we build a future
To honor paths we've left behind
We bring destruction
We bring war without an end
And then we hope
That tomorrow never comes
That it never comes

It's just you and me now
It's just you and me now
It's just you and me against the world

It's just you and me now
It's just you and me now
It's just you and me against the world

It's just you and me now
It's just you and me now
It's just you and me against the world

It's just you and me now
It's just you
It's just you
It's just you and me against the world

We conquer paradise
Just to burn it to the ground
And we build a future
To honor paths we've left behind
We bring destruction
We bring war without an end
And then we hope
That tomorrow never comes
That it never comes

Thu, 28 Feb 2008 00:45:12 GMT

Whose woods these are I think I know.
His house is in the village, though;
He will not see me stopping here
To watch his woods fill up with snow.

My little horse must think it queer
To stop without a farmhouse near
Between the woods and frozen lake
The darkest evening of the year.

He gives his harness bells a shake
To ask if there's some mistake.
The only other sound's the sweep
Of easy wind and downy flake.

The woods are lovely, dark and deep,
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.

Addendum: Introspection

Mon, 09 Jul 2007 20:16:29 GMT

So I was walking in to work this morning listening to that song. Repeatedly. Something about it just crawls around inside my head and makes itself at home.

I think I know why. It is a upbeat song, yet still meloncholy. The ides in the song are powerful, and the ending is sort of a downbeat and the lyrics trail off with a forlorn tone.

I guess it's a metaphor for how I feel life is, and needs to be. Life can never be perfect. Whenever my life seems perfect, I worry. I just get paranoid waiting for the other shoe to drop, waiting for some big disaster. Which is why when some small tinge of meloncholy shows itself, or some small crisis comes up, it reminds me that life is as it should be. That there is a balance. That no major crisis is waiting to strike. I like having a little bit of meloncholy in my life. It makes it feel real, feel tangible. Life has to have some aspect of a downer to make the happy times feel real, feel as good as they should. Without the sad moments, the happy moments would not hold the same flair.

Life is good, even when it's bad. It's that bad that makes the good REALLY intensely pleasurable. I think if there was only good times and never bad, life would be boring.

Song of the moment

Mon, 09 Jul 2007 20:01:43 GMT

Shiny Toy Guns - You Are The One

Black rose and radio fire;
It's so contagious
Just something changing my mind;
I'm gonna take what's evil

Your cover melting inside,
With wide eyes you tremble
Kissing over and over again
Your God knows he's faithful

I try
To digest my pride
But passions grip, I fear
When i climb
Into shallow vats of wine
I think I almost hear,
But its not clear...

You are the one
You'll never be alone again;
You're more than in my head
You're more...

Spin faster, shouting out loud
You can't steal whats paid for
Just something hurting again
Murdersome; She's painful

You so believe your own lies
On my skin, your fingers
Runaway until the last time ;
We're gonna lose forever...

When you try
Don't try to say you won't
Try to crawl into my head...
When you cry
'Cause it's all built up inside
Your tears already said
Already said...

You are the one
You'll never be alone again;
You're more than in my head
You're more...

You are the one
You'll never be alone again;
You're more than in my head
You're more...

You are the one
You'll never be alone again;
You're more than in my head
You're more...

Alone again...

LOTR:O

Mon, 18 Jun 2007 17:09:55 GMT

So... I have started up a new MMO. Lord Of The Rings: Online. It's pretty fun. If anyone on my FL plays, drop me a line. I am playing a Hobbit Minstrel named Rodinbrad on Landroval right now. Haven't decided if he's going to be my main yet, but minstrel is pretty fun, much better than a healer class in most other MMO's. Let me know!

Manga Rant

Tue, 13 Mar 2007 19:36:07 GMT

I have finnaly caught up to current with Negima, and am working my way through Tsubasa: Resivoir Chronicle and was looking around the giant manga sections at various Borders/Barnes and Noble stores in the area for something to sate my palate for new manga. This brought up my current issues with manga and how published/edited/stocked currently.

First is stocking issues. While I do LOVE having stores in the area that have walls and walls full of manga, It is a pain to try and find something along the lines of what you are in the mood for like you can with regular books. with the sheer volume of titles available these days, it's a pain in the ass to sort through isles of spine out alphabetized titles, doubly so if you are not a super OMG scanlation reading title crawling manga-crazy fangirl/boy. If you are like me, and just read what is published, picking up four or five manga a month, it can be frustrating. I don't like being one of those people that park themselves on the floor in the middle of the manga section (something else that annoys me about the fandom) reading through the first volume or so to see if I like something. I would love to see manga gaining different sections. With more publishers adding easy one or two word content descriptors, this is becoming something that would be easy to do. I mean if I want to look for Yaoi, I really want it to be all right together for easy sorting. The same thing applies to action, romance, comedy, etc...

Another issue I have has to do with certain publishers. Viz is number one on my will not buy ANYTHING from them list. Fushigi Yuugi was a series that I was very into at one point. I was collecting the manga, and at that point, they were $20 a piece. Then, halfway through the series they switched format. That infuriated me. Yes, they released the older ones in the newer, cheaper format, but I had already dropped a large chunk of money investing in a series that would end up looking janky on my bookshelves in two different formats. I sold em all off and vowed never to buy another Viz series. Thing is, they have done that to a number of series since them too, so I stand by not buying a damn thing Viz releases. The other company that is guilty of this is CMX. The reason they are going through reissues though is because of fan backlash. They edited certain series to make it more mass-market friendly and less "mature-themed". I have noticed this trend is starting to tun around though, because of fan backlash, so maybe they have learned and will avoid this in future releases.

My other issue is a personal one. I, like many manga fans, had a bias against OEL or "american manga". Yes, some of the early tripe that TokyoPop publised was not even stylisticly the same and definitely seemed weak. So I built up a bias where there shouldn't have been one. I mean I read and buy Megatokyo manga for crying out loud, a webcomic manga! That should have told me that yes, OEL manga is not ALL crap. So this weekend I broke down my "ewww OEL manga" bias and bought Dramacon. Loving and living the congoing life myself, this manga was good, even great. It hit so many true chords about con life I devoured the first book in one sitting at 2 am last night. I think now I am willing to give OEL writers a chance. If they are half as good as Svetlana Chmakova, they may be a worthwhile read after all.

New anime portal site

Thu, 22 Feb 2007 19:22:05 GMT

Hey everyone,

Just wanted to pimp out a new AWESOME site to all of you. it is http://animeonline.com/ and it is a sweet site. Anyone that likes anime should take a look and join! As always you can find me as "shademalek" on the site and add me to your friends list!

Holidays.

Sat, 23 Dec 2006 06:27:43 GMT

I mostly hate this time of year. This season really brings out the worst in people. At least I have some people to keep me sane during my least favorite time of year.

Work has been hellish so far, I am just really REALLY busy. Next week is going to get worse though. One of my co-workers will be on vacation so from tuesday through saturday I will be pulling a 58 hour work week (before the holiday is calculated.) Other than that Christmas has been bearable. Gloria helps a lot with that.

So far I have been very impressed with the wonderful stuff my friends have found for me. Tonight I got these: http://www.amazon.com/Mond-Art-Neon-Genesis-Evangelion/dp/1421507676/sr=8-1/qid=1166854598/ref=pd_bbs_1/103-3815235-6926237?ie=UTF8&s=books and http://www.amazon.com/SuicideGirls-Missy-Suicide/dp/1932595031/sr=1-4/qid=1166854657/ref=sr_1_4/103-3815235-6926237?ie=UTF8&s=books. I really REALLY love my friends, the really get me.

All in all I hope to drink a lot this weekend and have these horrid days pass quickly. At least I have some really rad people coming over to spend the weekend with me.

Anyone have a Wii?

Tue, 21 Nov 2006 01:51:51 GMT

Hey, so I got it Saturday night, it's RAD! Anyone else get their hands on one? I need some friend codes! My address book is pristine and untouched and that needs to change! =D Post your FC here to link up. My FC is 6843 3530 0291 7863. Also, if you have any nifty DS Wifi Games, post your FC's for those as well, I have quite a few and no one to interact with/play against.

What the fuck ESA?

Fri, 10 Nov 2006 16:51:40 GMT

http://www.kotaku.com/gaming/legal/esa-threatens-kotaku-213676.php

Ok, Doug Lowenstein, your organization can officially lick my balls!

To quote one of the responses to this blog post "That e-mail is rated M for Motherfuckingretarded."

Parody is protected as free speech. As an organization that rallies around free speech issues in video games, you people should know this. You now look like giant hypocrites for suing over a parody, which is protected speech under the First Amendment. It really looks fucking retarded that you are suing Kotaku and EVERY blog site that reported this story.

I was very supportive of your organization, for protecting my hobby and my right as an adult to play video games that some people may think are not appropriate for kids. But I cannot abide by this hypocrisy.

Wow Jack, What now bitch?

Fri, 27 Oct 2006 15:41:45 GMT

Watch this. Quite possibly to worst example of an out of control lawyer. This man should be dis-barred. Footage courtesy of Destructoid.com.

http://www.destructoid.com/jack-thompson

New Hair pictures up on my Vox page.

Sun, 15 Oct 2006 20:03:41 GMT

I dyed my hair again finally.

Go take a look! =D

http://shademalek.vox.com/

Hmmm.

Sat, 07 Oct 2006 19:46:11 GMT

Your Birthdate: October 30

You have the type of personality that people either love or hate.
You're opinionated, dramatic, intense, and very outspoken.
And some people can't get enough of you - they're totally addicted.
Others, well, they wish you were a little more reserved.

Your strength: Your flair

Your weakness: If you think it, you say it

Your power color: Scarlet red

Your power symbol: Inverted triangle

Your power month: March

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Weird Al's New Song!

Thu, 21 Sep 2006 22:54:33 GMT

http://www.joystiq.com/2006/09/21/weird-al-ftw/

Since the world cannot just stop depressing the hell out of me today.

Mon, 11 Sep 2006 22:02:46 GMT

I grew up in New York, lived in NYC for a while. I knew a lot of people there. My parents were at the tail end of their summer back in NY and (unkown to me for the next few days as I could not get ahold of them) had just left a day or two before to go back to their winter home in Florida. I was waking up for work at around 6:00 PDT and before that day I had used my TV as my alarm clock. I woke up to see towers burning, not quite realizing what was going on. I recognized the buildings and was trying to recall why they looked so familliar as I was still hazy from just waking up when I saw the second plane hit and heard "Oh my god, a second plane just hit the World Tradew Center." Those words shook me to my core. I was in shock the rest of the day. I went to work as if nothing was wrong, and spent the next few days after on leave from work calling around, trying to find out who was ok.

Today, 5 years later I am still left with the question "Why?" and wondering if we will ever have closure.

I would love to be able to one day ask, in person "Mr. President, why are we wasting our time in Iraq, when the people who attacked us on our own soil are still free, still threatening us? They have gotten away with this crime for 5 years. They have made us fear people with water bottles and people wearing shoes onto planes, doesn't this mean the terrorists have already won?"

Fri, 08 Sep 2006 23:37:20 GMT

If there are one or more people on your friends list who make your world a better place just because they exist, and who you would not have met (in real life or not) without the internet, then post this same sentence in your journal.

There are quite a few...